This has been coming up quite often, so I just want to say one thing.
I. Do. Not. Need. To. Justify. My. Actions. To. Anybody. But. Myself.
I just don't. Even if it makes me seem shady, and rude, and like I lied.
I don't lie. I will you straight up that if I want to do something, I'm going to do it.
Girlfriend, I met you ten minutes ago. You have no right to ask me not to see Riley again. I was completely honest with you, so don't get pissy at me because he thinks you're crazy. Just because I can empathize for your situation does NOT mean I feel any loyalty towards you, or feel any urge at all to explain myself. If I want to spend my Saturday helping him with a paper, that's my prerogative. And if I want to get drunk and crawl into bed with him, that's my business too.
And dude, my feelings aren't going to change. Yea, we were friends and talking to you was fun. What's not fun is when you think that since your feelings changed it means mine have too. They haven't. I still don't love texting. I'm still uncomfortable being invited to hang out with people one on one. What in the world would make you think that changed? But hey, thanks for making me have to sensor what I say to you. Loooove that.
I don't want to be a professional photographer. I love love love that my family and friends are so supportive of that career choice and enjoy my work so much, but I've felt for a while that as a job it's not for me. And I've said it. And they love me so much and love my shots so much they talk me back into using it as a career. But I can't do it. I just can't. I'd hate it. I will never, ever stop loving photography or taking pictures. But what sets me apart is that you can feel the emotion in my shots, and you can feel it when I don't care about the subject. It looks like crap and I'm not about to live my life doing that.
It's just so frustrating when people don't listen. I try so hard to always be honest and clear with what I say. I need you to believe me when I speak and don't think you can change my opinions. And don't ever expect me to justify my actions cause I can tell you right now it's going to be a big fat
"Because I wanted to."
